Eddie's Testimony

“I’m saying it from my heart…”

“My name is Eddie Bayer. What brought me here was that I was homeless. I really didn’t have no where to go. I really couldn’t trust nobody. I didn’t have no means whatsoever of trusting anyone. When I got here, I was kinda quiet. I isolated myself for awhile. I kind of beat myself up for not having a job, no where to go, but I have found peace with myself. It took a while for me to do that. I had a lot of people talk to me like Elwin, pastor John, pastor Ted, pastor Larry. I had a few brothers talk to me. I tried to open myself up….to feel love again. I kind of found love here, but once you’re out there on that street, you’re not going to find any greater love. But with me here, I found a lot at Hoskins Park ministry. It brought me light, it brought me goodness, it brought me to where I could love myself again, and it brought me to trust many people around me.

I came from a long way. I try my best…I’m not going to even say try…I’m doing my best as I can to fulfill my needs and God’s needs – not just because he asked me to…I choose that path.

For the near future, I want to see myself act strong, but better. Not because I want to, but because I want to strive to do so for myself. By having God’s faith in myself, even with his mercy and grace, I wish that I could improve myself even better. Right I now I wish I could improve myself more to God, than anything.

I had bad times, some Saturdays. I was scared. I was kinda lost. I made it my decision and then God made that decision for me to get baptized. I had several thoughts in my head…saying I’m not going to be able to make it, but I did. For anyone who choses to listen to this, I hope they do the same thing. Don’t beat yourself up. Don’t get yourself down. Hoskins Park ministry is a place for hope and peace, and with God’s care, it’s up to you to put it in your heart. I’m not just saying this from my mouth, I’m saying it from my heart.

I just with that everybody could just see this place for what it is. This is a ministry, it’s just not a shelter. It’s just not a place where you lay your head at or go out and do stupid things. It’s a place where God wants you at, not just because you want to do things your way. It can’t be your way. You can’t have your cake and ice cream and eat it too. This place helps you get on your feet, teach you about the Lord, what the Book says. You got to have faith in yourself. You have to have faith in God. You have to have faith with the people here. They will help you and they will let you understand more about the spiritual ways especially the Bible. If you read the Bible, it will give you more of a direction. It will give you hope and peace.

Thank you, this is Eddie Bayer.”